Hello my fellow bloggers:
I haven’t been on in a few days, I’ve had so much going on.
These past couple of days have been a struggle, not with anyone, but with myself. I always thought of myself as a person who never held grudges against anyone, but little did I know I was just putting the resentment away in a place in my heart that I wouldn’t visit often. I held that resentment in that place for years and would not let it out or even really think about it because it was too painful to deal with.
I learned to live with myself being that way a very long time. It was the only way I could cope with the pain and continue relationships with the people who had caused me that pain. I thought I was doing myself a favor by putting the pain away, but I was just making things worse. I automatically built walls around my heart and closed myself to the point where I forgot how to be social and trusting on a day to day basis. I pushed so many people away, the only ones that remained are the ones who loved me at my best and at my worst. The ones who understood my pain and loved me regardless.
One of those people is God. No matter how alone I felt at times He never left my side. There were moments where I thought I would loose my mind, but He kept me together.
These past few days have been such an eye opening experience for me. I have learned so much about myself, at times I couldn’t stand the pain, but my God held me with His loving arms and let me know I would be okay.
I just want to let you know that no matter how big or how small your pain is God can help you through it. Don’t hold on to resentment or grudges against people. You might be the cause of your blessing being on HOLD. Don’t be the one who hinders your own prosperity, be the one who makes sure you are where your suppose to be. The relationships with my mother & sister have been restored. I thank God for showing me who I truly am and learning how to make me better.