Emotions About Life

How I truly feel tonight?
That’s the question of the night. How do I put all of my feelings of anxiety and peace all in one page. I can’t help the way that I am, neither can I help the way I feel. Can I help how I act out my feelings? Yes, I will, and so I do. I continuously revise and review my situations, so I act out the way I’m meant to act out or not act out at all.

On another note, I am being impulsive and changing my mind about different situations all of a sudden because I rather concentrate on other issues rather than what I am really going to be facing, and that is a rotator cuff repair.
How do I ease myself and emotions into my life? And something my son just said made so much sense, it was completely out of context, but he said “you gotta flirt”. Honestly you have to just love life and everything that comes with it. We can’t continuously fight against the truth that lies before us, sometimes we have to learn to accept and say it will be okay. Not everything that will come towards us will be things we like, but its okay because it will pass, and it will get better. Now lets not ignore our feelings for the things we are facing, its okay to be scared, and its okay to cry because of it. But you have to be able to flirt with life and make it your “bitch” (which is the first word that comes to mind). But you get what I mean, make it your friend, not your enemy. Love it instead of hating it and romantically make it what you want for you. No struggles needed just challenges looking for you to become better at this thing called life.

Motivational Monday #MM

When we are children we dream big, there are no limits.

As we grow into adulthood, we learn that limits do exist.

But as adults we must learn if those limits are going to hold us back from reaching our dreams or will they be our motivation to keep pressing towards our goals?

Dream big, don’t hold back, all in God’s time and will those dreams will come to pass.

Stay Motivated!!!

Mother Thank You

Today has been a day that I’ve been going down memory lane, since I was a child. It’s been funny and at times heartbreaking. I believe we all have stories to tell about our childhood and some of us wish things would’ve been different, like the time I sat on ant hill and my mother had to spray me with the water hose in Puerto Rico.

As I wrote my memories down, I noticed a lot of them began with “my mother”. For example; “I remember when my mom would fill the house with water and soap in Puerto Rico and me & my sister would slide all over the house” or “I remember when me and my mother would skip all the way home and we found it so amusing”.

I just want to take this moment and thank my mother Ada Ramirez for all she did with all she could. For loving me, raising me, putting up with my mischievous ways, and loving me although I was bald for the majority of my childhood ;). Thank you mother for holding me at night when I woke up crying for no reason and for all your patience when I was little. I know now as a mother how much you gave of yourself to be there for me.

Silver Lining

This weekend was full of a turmoil of emotions. I have felt sad, happy, disappointed and angry. At some moments I have felt all those emotions at once, needless to say, I feel exhausted and wish I could go on a vacation. 

One thing I have taught myself is to find the silver lining in my toughest moments. A circumstance is never completely horrible.There is always a good thing happening or about to happen. No matter how much it pours you can always count on that beautiful rainbow showing itself after all the rain. 

Right now my health is my worst enemy and my wallet ;), but my kids are in great health. My kids are not the kind of children that require riches to put a smile on their faces. A simple funny movie from redbox, their favorite candy or just getting in bed with us and watching a movie as a family, makes their day. I love the fact that no matter what me and husband might struggle with as head of households, we have these wonderful children that make us smile when we least expect it.

My children are my strength to keep my head above water. They are the angels that God put in my life for me to never give up. They are my everything. My children are and will forever be my silver lining.