Depression

  

Honestly Speaking

I’m having one of the moments where I am staring at my computer trying to figure out what to write about. I want to write honestly about my life. I want to say the correct things, so it will be something that everyone will enjoy.

Lately I have been thinking about my financial troubles and how I wish I wouldn’t have to struggle so much in life just to have the things that I need or want. I am grateful for all that I have because at the end of the day I have a roof over my family’s head and food on the table and my family is in good health. So for the most part all things are good, but I just wish they were better. I know it’s human nature to never be satisfied with what we have and always want more, so needless to say I am only human.

I imagine myself living in a beautiful home where my kids have their own rooms. I imagine my husband with a job where he doesn’t have to kill himself and he enjoys doing. I imagine myself driving a Mercedes-Benz GLK, which is the SUV that I love the most right now. I want to be able to get my hair done when I want not when I can and my nails as well. These are just some of the things I imagine.

I don’t ask for much, I just want to be comfortable in life and not struggling. I guess this is just something I have to work towards making true. Maybe one day I will hit the lottery and all my dreams come true but until then I will continue to be grateful with all that the Lord has blessed me with.

Mission in Life

My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style.

Maya Angelou

A Beautiful Day

  

A Beautiful Appearance

Boy: Look how beautiful you are. You are so amazingly astonishing. Your lips are nicely                   plumped, your cheekbones are well defined, so are your eyes with long eyelashes that catch my attention. Your body is perfect, well proportioned up top, thinned out at the waist with a nice curve to follow like a coca cola bottle. Your legs are strong but still feminine like. You are perfect just as you are.

Girl: Thank you for all of your compliments, but my lips are nice and plumped thanks to a lip enhancer. Unfortunately my         eyelashes are not mine but I am glad you like them. My cheekbones, my “well proportioned top”, “thinned out waist and curve to follow”, as you so nicely put it, are all thanks to my plastic surgeon. I will let him know you appreciate his work. Now the legs are mine, I go to the gym from time to time.

Please do not misinterpret this post. I believe in women doing all the alterations to their bodies as they wish but just make sure you do it for the right reasons. Remember to love yourself first as you are and never change to please anyone else but yourself. Nobody deserves to have that power over you.

Creativity

It is in our hearts that we believe we can become all that we are capable of. Our imagination is creative and possible of unlimited creativity. It is beautiful when you are able to imagine your dreams and then watch them come true. Our hearts desires our wired by our dreams and will. We live to only see the day where our dreams will come true.

Creativity is a blessing and just a few know how to master it. In this world we have all kinds of creative beings. Whether they are artist, song writers, writers, architects, painters, just to name a few, we are blessed to have these people in existence. At times these people can be misunderstood and shut out. They are at times loners and not as sociable as you may presume. Only to one day be recognized for the great minds they posses.

Remember to recognize and love all unique beings that are around us. Their creativity is everyone’s blessing in disguise.

I’m Back

Hello my fellow bloggers:

I have not been on for a while, but I promise to start once again. I have a lot to say and I will be posting some things that I have written while I was gone. I hope that you enjoy them and take something from each post that will help you as well. I will be sharing my true thoughts and experiences with the hopes that you will be able to relate or view the situation from my point of view.

Mind Over Matter, Spirit Over Soul

This is beautiful…enjoy!!

The Abuse Expose' with Secret Angel

Mind over matter…
Spirit over soul…
It’s part of overcoming…
as we give God control.
For souls are emotional…
and cause us to react…
but spirits commune with God…
and His responses are exact.
For we are all spirits…
sent down from above…
to overcome all obstacles…
with God’s Grace and Love.

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Something Beautiful is on The Horizon

Sometimes there are secrets that can’t be told or feelings that can’t be felt. The intensity of the emotions are too hurtful to face. Unable to confront your past it’s hard to deal with your present and intolerable to imagine the future.

How did you get here or how did everything get out of hand? How is it that you can’t express your emotions? Because they are entangled in your heart along with the memories that hurt you and won’t let you have peace. Unable to function with what life has given you and only able to think about how bad it all is. It seems impossible the thought of you being able to get out of this state of mind. It seems as though no matter what you do, life hands you another pack of issues to deal with. How do you withstand the changes and how life fluctuates right before your eyes without a warning? All you have to go by is faith, faith in what? The missing factor in your life. You always have had faith but you continue to deal with all this hurt and mistrust everyday of your life. Why you? How come you are not normal, able to feel normal? How is it that despite all your good deeds, all your efforts to help others it’s still not enough to get you by with a little bit of slack, a little bit of peace? You try to sleep and the pain awakens you, the loneliness haunts you and you’re unable to get rid of it. Your eyes weep from fear and the tears just don’t stop. No matter what you do they just won’t stop.

You cover your eyes, shut them closed in hopes of opening them and realizing that it’s going to be okay. That you will be okay, that all of your fears will go away and you will be able to breathe. As if you were being relieved of all the pain, heaviness in your heart and all the memories which cause you harm. The world turns into a better place and you smile. Your smile is the start of a fresh day with hope of all beautiful things about to happen for you. And it’s at that moment when you realized that you can do this thing called life, that you will be okay, that there is no doubt you will be able to make it no matter how hard life becomes. Your dreams are obtainable, they are realistic. All your pain subsides and you no longer feel that heaviness which haunted you every day. Your life changes for the better and your faith returns, your faith in God your faith in YOU!

Emotions About Life

How I truly feel tonight?
That’s the question of the night. How do I put all of my feelings of anxiety and peace all in one page. I can’t help the way that I am, neither can I help the way I feel. Can I help how I act out my feelings? Yes, I will, and so I do. I continuously revise and review my situations, so I act out the way I’m meant to act out or not act out at all.

On another note, I am being impulsive and changing my mind about different situations all of a sudden because I rather concentrate on other issues rather than what I am really going to be facing, and that is a rotator cuff repair.
How do I ease myself and emotions into my life? And something my son just said made so much sense, it was completely out of context, but he said “you gotta flirt”. Honestly you have to just love life and everything that comes with it. We can’t continuously fight against the truth that lies before us, sometimes we have to learn to accept and say it will be okay. Not everything that will come towards us will be things we like, but its okay because it will pass, and it will get better. Now lets not ignore our feelings for the things we are facing, its okay to be scared, and its okay to cry because of it. But you have to be able to flirt with life and make it your “bitch” (which is the first word that comes to mind). But you get what I mean, make it your friend, not your enemy. Love it instead of hating it and romantically make it what you want for you. No struggles needed just challenges looking for you to become better at this thing called life.